My dessert of the day

Hohoo... got dessert which steven bought yesterday! !

2nd last day of year 2013

so fast, now it's already the 2nd last day of the year 2013. So many things happened till I already forgot what had happened....

There were a lot of ups and downs during this year and below are some of them which i barely remembered....

Feb..
First time having DnD...
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May...
2nd time been to TW but was horrible! Brought SGD500 but I could only spend SGD250 because that idiot bastard did not bring a single cent to there! not only that, before left SG, he even asked me to draw out SGD500 to help his friend to buy some tea leaf back!!!


Sept...
1st time taking cruise and even went to Redang! hohoo! the weather was hot like mad!!! nothing much at there actually. i was super moody that time because that idiot kept pushing me to the limit...
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it was a first time someone did this for me... really very touch!
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Oct...
Celebrated steven's birthday! hoho... first time been to Adventure Cove and Aquarium in Sentosa!
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1st time been to AUD! a great experience with great company. something which i rarely experience before. something which i saw it in my first time which is the GLOW WORM!!!

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Nov...
1st time been to Phuket... haha! another great experience with great company....
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i love the design of the hotel!
made me don't even feel like leaving there...
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Dec...
Christmas Day and I received something which money is unable to buy...
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something which is handmade.... although overall needed to spend around... $100 to do it but money is not the thing which made me feel happy... is the effort that counts.


hopefully more happy things to come.... i'm already very sick and tired to gone thru everything back to scratch...

if ever break up...

if ever breakup this time, i think i can just remain single.
it's just too tiring and hurtful to have another round of pain....

i will move on and stay strong. no more depend on anyone. just be myself.

i really feeling tired... but i still trying my best...

well, i believe no one will ever read this because i rarely touch this blog.

i think this will be the best place for me to really voice out how i really feel...


i'm already having the 4th relationship and really want to make it work out.
but somehow, i already screwed it. i really don't know what's really going on and i really have not intention to make my partner feel that i do not care.

maybe this time round, i really doing something very wrong. maybe i should just give up on this relationship because it does not turn out good in any ways.

however, whenever i think that way, my another side of me will tell me not to give up.
not because he is rich or what, is because this time round i really want to treasure this relationship and want to make it works.

so... what should i do? i hate such feeling whereby thing does not go according to my way or it is because the person whom i want to be with is not the right one?

he is doubting me and i'm trying to prove that he's wrong. i don't like that and how can such way can prolong our relationship?

i really feeling tired whenever such things happened. being together for months and we seem like quarrel countless times. you're disappointed in me and keep telling me that you already lose your trust in me....

am i really so bad till need you to say in such a way? if that's the way, why do you still want to woo me right in the beginning?

i also want my courage back to prove that i can do it but... please don't keep saying that my action makes you getting more and more disappointed...

i been thinking, for the past few months, i been trying to do as much as i can. however, whenever there is something happened, you will only see my wrong. is that the right way?

i really want to continue... please don't let me want to give up.

My yesterday lunch with christina

A nice chat with her....

What should I do....

I very tired sometimes. Should I continue this relationship or not... is he what I want to live on for my rest of my life....

Emotionally tired...

Sometimes been thinking, why should I keep staying in this home whereby my mum don't even appreciate me at all.

Just because I came home late today, she gave me attitude.

I don't mind to feed my sister since I already said I would feed her yesterday. However, you gave me attitude really moh right.

I fully understand that she is worry about my dad who is currently hospitalize but she really need to be like that?

Then while waiting to bathe, I heard she said this to my sister, "you no money yet anyhow buy. Those have money yet don't want to buy anything." very obvious that she was saying me. She is just very funny. If I bought, she said valence not auto. If valence bought, she said why I didn't buy anything. If both bought, she would say why I buy and didn't ask valence to buy. What's wrong with her?

Then even said I didn't visit my dad or didn't concern. I heard that and really very angry. If i really don't concern, I really can don't bother anything and come home as late as I can. I can no need to tell you that I will feed my sister after I reached home today. I can no need to pray good health for my dad. She knows nothing yet gives such comment. Not everything I do I must report to the whole world. You're also the same what. Why now pushing all the blames to me? I learnt those from you.

Just now been thinking, should I rent a room instead? Super tired of being accused for nothing. Always said I don't concern about this family when I didn't show it physically.

A little gift

Today is Chu hui's last day in our school. Feel sad but glad she managed to get out from here. Bought the crystal for her with a coin pouch. Then yesterday night went to do a simple card for her. Similar as Joyce's but smaller version. And also I didn't ask everyone to write their wishes because thinking she also dun bother about others too.

Received gift from her which I didn't expect at all. A very nice bracelet from Helen accessories.

Had dinner with her and Karin at JP. Had a great chat and felt glad that she willing to talk to us about her personal life. Well, all the best to her. We will miss her!

My sister

Think in my posts, I never talked about my sibling. Now let's talk about one of them.. My younger sister.

She is just 1 year younger than me. However, she is not a normal person.

Due to lack of oxygen before birth, she suffered a serious illness. Since young, she did not know how to talk, walk, bathe and eat. All she can do is just look.

Although most of us especially my parents take care of my sister wholeheartedly, we will still feel glad whenever seeing my sister's smile. Sometimes will feel that whatever we did for her is just worth it.

Nowadays, she always feel pain. Almost every night will cry for pain. Got to know from online that it was the muscle that caused the pain.

No matter what, we will still love you. Really hope you can get well soon.

Dinner!

Went all the way to have Raman! I super like there because only this restaurant will have free eggs! After that, we went to raffles place there to play those childhood game.

I'm tired of my life..

Sometimes been thinking, what do I want for my life...

i love shopping!

knew what again? i happened to went orchard and saw a leaflet saying about there was a warehouse sale at *scape. so went with valence and these were the damage i got myself...

1. 2 pairs of covered flats for $12. meaning 1 pair of shoes costs me $6!
2. 1 tote bag for $10. not really that cheap but this is a waterproof bag with many conparment. i love it!
3. 2 lace coin pouch for $2! meaning each pouch cost only $1. not only that, it has 2 conparment!

so total? i only spent $24 for these! super great deal! hahaaa.....

mini celebration for valence

went for team bonding without letting boss to know. haha! i think that will be the first and will also be the last time doing that.

actually wanna buy cupcakes for valence but well.... not enough time. so i went to buy mini cake for him instead at Plaza Sing.

after after his work, we met at city sqaure mall. hohoo.... then we walked from city square mall to the dinner place...

the portion was huge!!! ended up i couldnt finished my meal. went to smu there to celebrate his birthday. hahaa! hope he would be a happy boy without any worries. happy birthday my boy....

Cat cat cat

Hohoo... So many cats staying near the neighbourhood.

what a HOT weather!

know what? the weather is getting hotter and hotter in singapore. now i am super tanned but i didnt not suntanning~ ARGH!!!!

Should I start moving to the next stage of career?

Should I start looking for job? Even Chu hui already tendered..

johor trip

went to johor with valence. hahaa! this time round we went there very early. around 10am. missed our premium bus but still managed to reach johor very early.

took pictures, ate and watched movie. however, almost half of the day we were just resting because i was feeling so moody. hahaa!!!
Bought a pair of sport shoes. So it means that I am going to start my run soon.

my new online shoes!!! hohoo

see that??? i bought that pair of shoes for $6.90. hmm.... actually the quality really not that good. it was for some emergency case to wear but i dying for a new pair of shoes!!!!

argh!!! my off-in-lieu...

know what? tomorrow is my off-in-lieu day and? i am having cramp at this time!!! why always like that.... sigh!!!

steamboat, sing song and movie session

 went to violice's house for steamboat. her mum treated us for a meal.
after meal, we went to sing song plus exercise plus watching movie.

 then heard about the news about shuping. haix... fainted loh. just because of that $20, made until so mafan....