call from...

now then know that... the 3 "no answer" calls were from darren....

...

hope everything will be fine!

idoit calls...

very idoit!

do not know who's kept calling....

called le yet did not even answer!!!!

a diverted call..... now thinking who diverted the call to me.

then thinking whether is darren or not.

argh.....

now thinkin... is A calling to him or who....

argh.....

called 3 times... all 3 times kept slient!!!!

going overseas

having a urge to leave singapore..... maybe because realised that darren was having fun right now in genting, so no matter what i need to have my own fun!!!

so..... looking in msn who's online.... saw kylie! so asked her whether wanna to go overseas....

she agreed! so planning where to go..... well, i can only go somewhere in asia but not genting.... there is a super bored area....

planning to go the 1st or 2nd week of july. no matter what will never go during the lunar 7th month.

thought of going tomorrow until maybe monday or tuesday.... but that will be too rush.

hehee.... who wanna join us? lolz...

NP

Wednesday
it was my 1st time driving the car to orchard area...
so funny.. i asked derek how to get there from office... and he drew a "map" for me...
well, quite scared that i would lost my way as that time was the busy hour.

however, everything was all right.

met kylie at cine. walked around taka to see whether any food attracted us... then saw 2 gays!!! had dinner at pastamania in cine... yuck.. we did not managed to finish the food...

we chatted all the way until the shop was about to close.

we chatted a lot!!! poly's stuffs... personal's stuffs... that was something which never ever happened to us before!

then i drove her home.... glad that she was very calm and she even taught me how to get to AYE from her home.. hahaa...

i reached home safety.... hohooo....

well, i do wish to have a small gathering like this once a while... have a simple dinner.... a simple chat...


Thursday
NP.....

actually today derek should treated us as he had agreed to do so.... ended up he has appointment at tuas so.... we drove to NP for our lunch!!!

abby and i were from NP! lol...
she did not know that there was a canteen 4 and 5 in NP! so guided her around to canteen 4!! hah...

then had lunch at canteen 1. chicken chop...

then we realised that... there was a TRAFIC LIGHT!! hoho.. so funny....




then.. we found a underpass......

then realised that it linked to canteen 1... -_-" lame...

at the co-op... bought this.... super sour liquid...

nothing much.. let derek to try since he did not have a chance to go there (he was also from NP). then kanna scolding by him as he did not expect that it was sooooooo sour!

then met huiying around 7.15pm at lot 1. super long time did not see her. had dinner at kfc (miso cruch) then walked around there... bought a total of $45 of clothes at girdano... kao... 5 clothes with all different colours. white, black, light pink(same design as black), dark pink and cholocate... then thought got discount but ended up no! sian...

bought a street directory also... a new version de.

reached home... around 10+pm.... should call darren but i watched tv until 11+pm....


friday
early in the morning, received call from darren that he was at tuas.. i was shocked and got to know that he was going genting with his poly friends. that was a shocking news as i did not expect that they really going. then he told me that he had told me about this before.. -_-" that time he said he might not be able to get leave for sunday.... well, that made me could not sleep.... for saturday ndp preview, he asked me to get from syn wee... haix...

he will be back on sunday.. so... i will be either staying at home or going out with friends or going out with family.....

hohoo..... so surprised to receive call from kylie that she wanted to meet after work....

i thought was a group of them....

hmm..... hhaa...

want to sleep

today so funny..... went for appointment. ended up the manager of the company bought me milo at coffee shop.... not only 1 but 4!! haha.... so honoured but very embarassed as no matter what i should be the one who treated them not them treated me.

they were so friendly!!!! talked the most to the purchaser as his age was some how near to me... wasted that he was a malaysian (very obvious when he started talking) or confirmed would get better pay (since the company already provided him a car....)

well, after that, my luck was not that good... lost my way again. but this time, at least knew how to get out from there! hahaa....

nothing much. quite moody today. i did not have much talk to that person.

time to change... time to ignore...

raining

now raining heavily outside.... my heart is also raining....

really.... i need to save money to go somewhere away!!! who can really donate me some money???

haix...............

how i wish i can forget everything. it is hurtful to keep remember what's going on in my life.


time to sleep. i hate to think.....

argh

why??

you were the one who made mistake yet saying me why using this tone to talk to you?

ok... enough.

i have enough!


yesterday night, dreamt of B. hohoo... so surprised! then dreamt went to some countries.. (not sure what was that countryat all)... nothing much...

lastlast night dreamt of ghost.... hohoo.... she/he did not run after me....

well, i really tired to update... specially when I am going to break down soon....

who can donate some money for my holiday trip? i really want to go somewhere away from here alone....

i feel that...

i have lots of feeling after yesterday incidents....

-derek told me that i could success if i work hard.... i had the feeling that i would leave this company sooner or later..... well, every night i just feel so stress over sales.... every night i cannot really sleep until the next day.... that will only happen on weekends... derek always thinking of us to get bonus at the end of this year while me? spending this working hour writing blog....

-jorge told me that this week and next week will have sales coming in. i had the feeling that... i have yet to contribute to anything to company! super guilty and nearly broke down yesterday.

i am really wondering... i am right now "wondering" around in this world. i have not set my goal.... i am always doing "one step at a time" routine... this was ever since when i was in primary school... haix..... i thought that will be the best "way" for me since i depend everything on fate...

my life is quite smooth compare to other people whom i know.... however, right now, i really feel that i am walking "wrong path" in my life....

doing sales, is something which i hate in the beginning..... however, half of my part time job is some how doing sales.... just like selling laptops.... selling india products...

realised that.... i really prefer office job..... yet impossible telling jorge now that i do not want to do sales line when right now i need to pay for the car...

then another problem... not related to work but... haix...

i keep thinking that way.... i do not have anymore positive thinking in my mind... no more...

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really hate my life!!!

argh....

how thinking... what am i want right now???

haix....

i hate to cry... yet i cannot control my tear. i am a super emtional person. can anyone really bother to care about me?

not that my family does not care... just that, a lot of things i do not like to discuss with them... especially about work and relationship... well, seem like until now, my mum still does not accept 1 thing....

haix... hate my life a lot.... so many times thinking of going to die.... argh.... even though knowing that there are many people caring about me, i just have this kind of mindset... sorry for my selfishness but....

well, not to worry, right now i still do not want to die yet.....


well, stressing a lot in office.... i really want to give a BIG LOUD SHOUT!!!

thinking.... sales line is still not my cup of tea.... sian la!


how i wish i can be like "jin shun"... never give up no matter what..... but................ ARGH!!!



HATE LA! I HATE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!

i just want a simple life!!! why can't you just let me to have a peace in mind??? ARGH!!!!!!!

changing company's name

hohohoo.... company going to change logo!!

from MMG to almojil.... quite troublesome as a lot of things need to change...... email address is the most jialat one....

nothing much for today.... today will be staying in office... see how for tomorrow....

sleeping time...

how come everyday so tired?

these few days i was in a super tired mode.... not even spending some time online...

thursday
cannot remember......

friday
joey's advanced birthday celebration. as i was not sure for the place, darren drove me to there. had thai dinner plus ice cream cake.

after that, thought that ould be going to new asia bar but due to that guys must be 23 and above, so changed our mind and go MOS.

that was my 2nd time been to there. hmm.... everything was still the same.

well, i was drunk at there... hmm.. not really drunk as i was still knowing where i were. just only felt giddy and walking a bit not straight.

around 1+am, xiang zhong, jason and adeline sent me home... hahaa.. really thanks xiang zhong for sending me home and adeline for making sure that i was reached home safety. reached home around 2am....

around 2+am then went to sleep.. the smell was still there but i did not care so much..... felt like vomiting but did not. phew.....

saturday
woke up around 8+am which was totally out of my expectation as i only slep few hours. rushed everything with my brother and went to lavender to do my brother passport. well, it did not need to take much time.... took photo, fill up the form and paid by nets....

after that, went to westmall and we bought a lot of things. bought a parker pen for dad, wooden animal for dad and mum, assessment books for brother and even had lunch at sakae sushi.... haix... just like that spent around $50....

went home after that. met violice around 7pm at westmall and we headed to cityhall... we had a very bad miscommuniation that she thought we going to club at other place instead of st james while i smsed to her that yesterday i been to mos. so just wanted to find a place to chill out...

can anyone tell me, what does it means "chill out"? my meaning for that is that find a place to sit down, drink something and chat while her meaning for that is that it is also going to club.... hmm.....

well, both of us were not in a good mood as such miscommunication would happen. however, everything were ok after that. phew.... went to cityhall... to new asia bar.....

as violice had not had her dinner, so thought to have something on level 70. but the restaurant was fully booked. so, walked around at level 69... wow... got couple having their wedding dinner at there... guys at there were quite good-looking! lolz... well, i did not bother so much about these....

then after that, went back to level 71... new asia bar. kao... so many ang-mos.... i felt super uneasy! but since i suggested there...... so just has something to drink and chat....

well, ended up we ordered a pizza, a snacks, 1 shots and 1 red + white wine... i like the shot!! it did not really tasted much like acholcol!!! hohoo.. but i did not like the wine... well, i did not like acholcol at all in the beginning... hahaa.... and, just like that spend $77+!!!!! i going to faint soon....

then here came a super funny part.... the waiter was blur blur passing me a drink... we were blur blur until the bartender told us that he treated me. i was shocked and violice kept teasing me for that until i "poked" her.... she gave a loud "AH" and everyone sitting near to us turned their heads and looked at us.... hohoo.. she was so embarrassed and she gave me a BIG slap on my shoulder!!!

then after a while, the bartender also gave violice a drink...

i did not drink until violice forcing me to drink.... then drank it... realised that there was no acholcol in it!! hohooo.... while violice had a bit. then she was thinking... "how come he knows that you do not like to drink acholcol??" wei.... how do i know about this???

the glass was quite special... well, did not have a chance to take the picture of the glass.... really so different!! normally they should give a transparents glass but mine was a white tall glass.... then violice teased me again.... "because your is special mah..."

then after that, there was 2 dancers dancing at the small dance floor... they were so sexy!!! then.... here came a guy who somehow looked like eddy... just only somehow... not him.... then violice said that he kept looking at us... so weird.... he also a bartender....

we were at there until 11.50pm.... thanked that bartender for the drinks and walked off.... hahaa.... actually i did not want to thanks him but violice said that we should as we actually did not derserve to have the drink in the beginning. hahaa....

then she also said that that another bartender (who was looking at us) were also looking at us again when we thanked another bartender... hmmm......

well, he did not ask for names or telephone number. so believed that he just wanted to treat us thats all... hahaa....

tried to find OCBC atm after that... phew... found it... so went to look for cab..... it was raining so we walked under the rain.....

got a indian guy asking for money from us.... violice told him that... "sorry, we do not have money.." then... 2 ang-mos came and asked where was the pan-pacific hotel.... we were blur blur and gave a wrong direction to them.... after we realised that it was wrong, violice and i were running after them with our heel shoes!!!! we like running like mad women!! haha... finally, we managed to "catch" them and told them about the wrong direction. phew.... even that road also able to reach their destination..... then lucky that there was a cab... so took cab home...

reached home.... did not bother much.... went to sleep... super tired!!!!


sunday
nothing much... woke up early to meet darren for breakfast then went to westcoast there to settle his property's stuff.... then went back to his house for a while and went home.

when reached home, mum was nagging me why putting the picture on friendster.... so "xia suay" (means no face, not right)... i was like.... WHAT??? why u said that it was "xia suay" to put that picture on net????? !@#$% confirmed was from my cousin they all told her mum and her mum told my mum....

then went to sleep... until 6.30pm then woke up.... had a dinner for father's day at coffee shop nearby as mum was having a ticket for father's day cum rice dumpling day.... then i paid for the dinner... luckily it did not cost a lot... $56.50....

i was so tired!!!!! slept around 9+pm.... received call from darren and violice at 10pm... no one was expecting me to sleep so early....


monday
very idiot... i felt super tired!!!! woke up at 4+am.... 5+am and 6+am!!!! confirmed that... i having stress in sales line.....

left house early as darren smsed me yesterday that he left a pounch behind the car.... so drove there early to return him....

later need to go out.... so scared that would kanna any accident... hohooo.... now then remember... i did not pray before i left the house!!!! haix....

not enough sleep

i am so tired!!!

even though i slept at 11+pm yesterday, i woke up at 2+am... 4+am and 7am....

So tired!!!!!!!

nothing happened today... phew. but later will be going out for appointment..... sob sob...

later will have "spring cleaning" our company's warehouse... only for sales staffs only.... sob sob!!!

later will be meeting violice....

and also friday.... heheee.... not sure is a surprise as i received a sms from O.... that there would have a dinner.... not sure whether i could be able to meet them as my work will only end a 6pm.

i do not know how many times i needed to store my luck into my "luck's box" whenever i nearly kanna accident....

i felt that, my lifespan confirmed kanna cut around 10 years ever since i started driving.

just like today... i was in minor road. i did not expect that i did not stop and see for vehicle... and here came a BIG lorry driving in a fast speed.... out of my horror, i e-braked and by the time my car finally stopped, my car was just few cm away from the lorry. the lorry driver did not even bother to stop the lorry and see whether anyone getting hurt...

just when i my horror was still with me, i saw another lorry driving pass again!!! i immediately said sorry to the driver and drove out fast....

phew..... i really so shocked..............................

i hate driving in TUAS or rather.... west area....

i am so tired after receiving such a "gift"....

nothing much. stayed in office after visiting 4 companies!! hohoo...


tomorrow will be a tough day for me.... derek, winson and i needed to tidy up the warehouse!!! haix....

thanks cy

Thank cy for reading my blog... my life right now is super losuy!!! must meet up sometime to chat.... ask shi qi and siew peng along too... super long time did not see them le..

i hate my life again... haix.

i kept telling myself... CAN I DON'T HAVE THE CAR??!!

having a car, have good and bad points.... but it seemed that bad points were still far more than good points.

yesterday, nearly kanna accident while i was on my way to get my licence (i forgot to change the pass from the company which i went to visit)... that driver looked at me in curious... confirm did not believe that i was such a careless driver...

i hate driving in circle road at pandan area!!!! that was the area i was nearly kanna accident...

well, i lost my way to pandan crescent.... drove for 30 minutes and got to know that it as just beside pandan loop (even block) yet i kept driving that place again and again... worse still, i drove all the way to pandan road (far far away from there)....

ok.... i need to stop my rubbish about my driving... my driving is reallly super lousy!!!!

got to know that darren went to meet his friends for dinner, so i went home straight... mum was scolding me for not having dinner at home everyday... well, my mum was some how different from other mum... she prefered everyone went go AFTER work... haix... not saying it was not good... but...... so difficult to explain....

i believed that i was super nosy. from now, i did not want to keep sms le.
not that i was petty or what, just that.... no point of smsing without any reply...


do not know ever since when, i giddy is back again....

early in the morning already not in right mood. did everything wrongly!!!

now praying hard that my trip to my client's company will be a safety trip... of course, not to lost my way!!!

want to go back to sec sch life...

just now after amending my wish list and review my page.... i saw my secondary school pictures.... it gave me a urge to wish to go back to that time...

can anymore invent a time machine for me to get back to that time?

well, i want to change my life at there!! so as maybe i will not suffer much now... lolz....


now... i really want to tell A about this.... if you hate me so much, kindly let me know. i really hate this kind of life leh. i do not hate you at all but your action make me think something wild.

if you ever read this (i do not know whether you will read this as i do not ever know whether you have my URL for this), kindly INFORM me. i believe you know who i am referring to.

if you hate me, kindly take back all the words which you have told me months ago as none of the words which you told me were true to me at all.

okay. end my word.. time to sleep....

hmmm... i cannot remember much things happened these few days....

thursday
went home early!!! hohoo... nothing much...

friday
went home after work. then went to find darren they all at bukit timah... then darren needed to go to yew tee to settle something... on the way, A called, after she knew that i was with him, she hanged the call... well, she hated me so much ah??

went to watch movie "ghost in white" at west mall since got to know from darren's friend. i was quite pissed off after i suggested to darren that why did not he went to look at yahoo.com.sg to find for the venue of showing. he said that why i said like that. KAO... really pissed.... then from that time onwards, i did not talk at all. well, that was a funny movie but not as funny as what i expected.... around

saturday
went to east side of ikea and giant!! we lost our way to there!!! by the time we reached there was around 4+pm... yet mum expected me to reach home and pass them the car around 5+pm!!!! i was like..... why did not they take bus to there?? then mum scolded me that was it because i did not want to lend them the car.... i was like.... WHAT A RIDICULARS!!!! i really hate to have a car right now.... it giving me lots of troubles ever since then....

bought a lot of things at giant even though the price was the same...

reached home around 8+pm... mum did not talk to me at all...

sunday

went to meet violice and janis at jurong east entertainment..... then ended up violice was late so we went to have something to fill up our stomach.

then went to sing at kbox fom 4+ to 7pm... then went to take neoprint... then went to have dinner..

after that went home..... tired!!!!

scary moment

saturday..
could not remember....

sunday...
went to violice's house to return keke to her.
she told me quite a lot about her genting trip and not forget about some scary part...

after that, we went to woodland. could not remember the reason for going there.... then we went to woodlands town garden around 5+pm... we had an arugment on the water level in the pond but everything was settled after that. darren came and fetched us home... he was shocked to know that we were at woodlands town garden...

after reached home, he said that all gardens were "dirty" and should not be going at evening time...

what a scary night i had at night... my body could not move no matter how much strength i put in. I could not even talk! i felt something was around my neck which made it more errie!!! that time was 2+am while my brother and sister were at living room watching tv.

did not know when... i was about to move and i quickly went out from my room and slept outside... however, i could not sleep at all....

that was my 2nd time having such incident!! did not know what was going on... mum kept saying that i was dreaming...


monday
after work, went home...
at night, could not sleep at all... haix...


tuesday
so tired! but managed to wake up and went to work.
after appointment with derek, we went to causeway point for lunch.
thought that i could be the 1 who paid as he said today i would be paying, ended up he paid... lolz.

went to top up the cash card... wah.. no matter how much i tried, i just could not top up.. derek kept on laughing as to him, it seemed like so dramatic! because i told him that there was money in the bank but how come i could not op up... so fed up, i used my own atm card to top up...

then while we were about to go back to office, i received sms from darren's mum that darren was in NUH due to heart pain.... i was so shocked and intended to go to NUH. but i did not know the way.... so derek suggested that he drove me to there...

then called aunty about it and she said that he was alright now and i did not need to go there... phew... really scared me a lot... and 1 more things which also scared me was derek's driving skill... as he was driving my car, somehow he did not change the way he was driving...

then he drove all the way back to office... i was so lost... not only darren's matter and also the cards problem..

so derek drove me to bukit batok central there to confirm whether there was money in the card.... true enough, there was money in the card but.... half of the money was gone!!!!

bought "whatever" for derek for sending me to there... then saw aunty... she told me the condition for darren and he needed to go and fix appointment at hospital... haix...

then drove back to office and started doin my work... very tired...

after work, went to darren's house as he wanted to go to toa payoh... but he was sleeping.. so pull him up from his bed and went out.

i was waiting for him for around 2 hours... hohooo... i was so hungry!

then around 9.30pm he then left there and we went to bukit timah for dinner....

around 11pm then reached home while he was with tian fu and wei lun for 2nd round of dinner...

i was so worry for him... he did not tell me that he would feel heart pain when running...

reached home... online until 1+am.

i felt that, ruisheng's situtation was same as last time i was in... well, hope that everything would be fine....

then also chat with derek... they left office around 8.30pm and killed 5 xiao qiang at pantry!!! hohoo... then also told him about who intended to treat me for dinner.. blah blah blah...

nothing much... slept quite soundly! yet not enough sleep!!!

last day of work

finally.. last day of work!!

wednesday
went over to violice's house to take keke.... she kept looking up to see what was going on.... then darren drove the car to her house there.

i did not expect that.... he wanted to put keke behind the car booth.... i was quite angry as why could not put keke beside me... then got to know that there were some people was coming...

keke sure kanna scared a lot inside a dark room for so long... whenever darren turned the car.. like making a right/left/U turn or driving over a hum. OMG.... i was so afraid that she would kanna hurt by that....

drove to fetch angela, grace and aunty to marina there for steamboat dinner. uncles was at there already.

then after that, drove back home while in midnight darren and his relatives would be going to a temple to have 3 walks, 1 knee (some how like that)... my mum did not let me go so slept the whole night.


thursday
as it was a public holiday, went over to darren's house to pick up the car as we were going to have dinner at fortunate restaurant at toa payoh.

since the car could not sit so many people, darren rode motor and he went with us.

a total of 13 people and it costed $452.80 dinner set.... not bad....

then darren rode me home again while others took car.... end home, played with keke and went to sleep...


friday
phew... finally... going to end my day of work.... well, seemed like i going to turn fat soon as i seem eating more and more... or hungry more and more...

today will be a fine day for me... need to withdraw money for my car... haix hiax...