taxi drivers.....

ok... been trying my best to stop breaking promise with anyone and i did it!

as today i had already agreed to meet up with darren, so all other meeting would be closed. here, not that i prefer him other than my friend but i was trying not to break any promise. in actual fact, weekends i should be spending more time with him as he was only booking out during weekends and friends would be during weekdays but.... could say most of my friends were already start or rather, working for few months/yrs. therefore, it was not easy to ask them out after their work as they were in dead tired after the long 8-9 hours of working. so it was like, ended up only met him and no more others. well, also because of my long sickness during these days, all swimming sessions with violice were cancelled.

tomorrow will be meeting up with xiufang as she wants to give me my 21th present. well, can say that she is the second person who willingly buying present for me. really touched. the first person... no other than..... violice.... the creative mp3... wow.. violice.. i still using it!!! hahaa... then for darren? i don't expect he will give me anything for my 21th birthday.. well, that my feeling. if don't want to give then don't give. i don't force people to give me present for that as i start getting use not to celebrate birthday ever since last year....

early in the morning, finished up all my household chores and teaching my brother, thought that i could leave house but out of my expected, my mum bought so much of vegetables and wanted me to finish plucking all of them!!!! thunder roared and lightning lightened up the whole place!!! wow.....

ok.. back to today topic... taxi driver ya? lolz.. ok... after met up with darren, we left his house and took cab... my 2nd time taking mers cab.. 1st time was going to violice's secondary school friend's chalet. then stopped at darren's working place and headed to orchard road as later would be meeting him at there.

while waiting, i was window shopping. felt bored!!! then ended up bought necklaces.. -.-""(wasted money) well, also buying xiufang's additional present. =p

ended up, changed to lau ba sa there to have satay and stinkray(eh..... my english is jialat... don't know how to spell)

so waited for cab... knew what... i saw an empty passenger cab.. but driver ignored me and drove off!!! what the..... ok.. this time i went to the taxi stand to wait.... guessed what, the moment the cab was empty, the driver would say, "on call!!" and drove off!!!!! i was like... waiting for 15 minutes and finally.... a cab for me... realised that malay drivers were much more better than those chinese drivers would eagerly wanted to earn for that $2-$3 dollars of on call fare!!! damn it... what i believed that this had gave the bad impression for the tourists... knew what.. passengers who just behind of me were tourists.. or rather... foreginers... wow... they said that... "driver don't want to earn money?" hahaa.. they did not expect that they were trying their best to earn as much money as possible!! there was another lady, who was just behind me, told me that she had read about the news on the "on call" taxi driver. she knew it and i believed that that had given them a super bad impression that singaporeans were money face... fainted!!

i felt so ashamed that singaporeans were like that. argh....

well, no more for that... i would never taking cab at orchard unless been forced to do so..(hahaa.. that of cause. i do not like to waste too much money in transport)

so had my dinner at lau ba sa.. o.. the taxi driver even told me that sembawang shopping centre that got sell satay which was not bad... hahaa.. next time had my satay at there...

wow.. you knew what... darren said that the dinner was my present.. -.-" what sia... but, as i said, i already did not expect he would buy anything for me as he was much broke than me... haha... just that mum would say loh... well.... nothing i would do for that.

took cab home... although he was going to broke, he still insisted wanted to take cab as he understood that my mum would scold... hahaa...

again... another malay driver... hahaa! what i started to believe was that... young malay guys.. lazy... older malay guys.. understanding and hardworking while for chinese.. haha! just as oppisite as malay... fainted... then changed something.. not lazy for chinese but money minded.

tomorrow... a day i should remeber as i believe that... that will be my 1st and the last birthday celebration for this year of my birthday. hahaa! =p

the feeling...

friend VS relationship
who will win?

for my case, i will try my best to make them equal. i hate that why should i accompany more to 1 side but not to another side. no point for that and may be i will lose both side in the end.

thinking hard... many people are trying to do this but fail to do so... but, at least they are trying their best to make them equal rather than making unnecessary problems occur.



when you are lost, will there be someone willingly to help?

haha... i don't know. although there are friends and family around, i do not wish to tell them that, "hey.. i lost!!! what am i going to do?" that not my character!! haha... i prefer to think hard and start to cry.. hahaa... but that does not solve any problem!!! yeah.. that is what i think but somehow, after i cried, i learnt my lesson. hmm.. what lesson? hahaa.. just a lesson that make me understand more in real life situation.


online friend.... good to have 1?

yeah!!! but must have limit. i have 1 in friendster. although sometimes i feel that he is really a irriated person, when i m down, at least chat with him will feel much better. hahaa.. reason is that we do not meet up or having each other's handphone number. so is like... writing a blog but this "blog" will able to reply me.. hahaa.. damn... what i don't like is he keeps asking me out.. well, he can jolly well forget this idea!




well, just a sudden thinking for that. it does not mean anything. =)

another day... just pass by

yesterday
got call from the company that i said they wanted people to know PHP. hmm.. i still in considered but... believed that i did not want it.

met up with violice for repairing her handphone at bukit merah area.

reached there was the time when the staffs were intend to pack up and leave.. hohoo.. so suay kanna us so they did not have the choice but to serve!

talked about 15 minutes and the conclusion was.... "buy a new one"

although the service was not bad as they still "willingly" to serve us but... haiz!


went to the queenway shopping centre.. realised that there sold a lot of thing!!! both of us bought a lot sia!! then even my dear friend's birthday present i also bought...

something that made me mad and sad until we took cab all the way to jurong point. saw a "jewel" that was totally similar to my expensive neacklace but the price was totally.................... hiaz!!!

had our dinner at fish and co and left there as it was closing at 10.30pm.

what i could say was that i spent too much! x_X

so surprised that my cousin called me but... not for happy stuff for her. well... it was like my first time hearing her crying over the phone. sob sob.. me as a cousin but could not help her much...




here came the disgusting part...

we were waiting for 174.. finally it came and while we were on our way to board the bus.... WAH! someone threw a "bomb" to us.. we were like... nearly "killed" by that "bomb"... ok.. that was not enough. when we finally boarded the bus... that someone threw another more powerful "bomb"... i was like.. nearly fainted...

violice said that it came from that indian guy(eh... i did not take the photo.. but confirmed it was an indian guy) and we concluded that he ate a lot of onion, curry,, blah blah... yuck!!


today
hmm... got the call from the company that did not want to give OT pay and annual leave was superly stringy that i was selected. o.. so sorry... i did not want it... hahaa!! but.. i felt that i was sooooooooooo choosy after having interviewed and been selected for so many times. sob sob... i was like.. lost in myself on what kind of job i was really keen in. haiz!!!

got call from my aunt... so surprised that they knew that I was the one who added comment to my 2nd youngest's blog. well, just only few days and had so much things happened to them...

met up with darren at evening time after he booked out. had our dinner and went to his house for a while to watch da cang jing. wah.. started to stop watching it as here came the cruel part.. haha!!

on the way home, darren said that.. "don't so blur blur leh... like that is a sure that kanna bully when you start working." hmm.. i agreed with him but i indeed changed a lot. at least not as blur as in the past. at least i felt that after i kanna "cheated" by my 1st perm job. no more scared that i would hurt that person and be firmed of my answer. that the reason why until now, i was still unempolyed.. hahaa!! i started to think more... thought of what kind of job i wanted to work. IT related or just admin would do. of course that working IT related would benefit more but i just wanted a simple life... haiz!

reached home and played tarot cards as my brother insisted to play that...

that ended my day..


i realised that my daily life is bored as i do not like to have any arugement over something that what other people are doing. although i have my own way doing things, that does not mean that i need to do what now is popular about. hahaa... got time... i need to change my url for that. do not know why, i start to get back my sollow life.. haha....

bored day

24042006(monday)
went for an interview with huiying for that stupid job. well, could not believe that it was such a SMALL room!!! well, that person kept on talking and huiying and i could only listen. hahaa!!

they wanted a IT cum Admin staff.. but leh.. both of us did not know PHP. he let us to consider whether we willing to learn this programming language..

nothing much. had raining but still manage to go home. haha!!

lihong started her working life le! lolz.. good luck to her!



25042006(tuesday)
bored day. nothing to say about



26042006(wednesday)
went for an interview. hahaa! there really... haiz! well, did not wish to get to work at there... no OT pay, no trasport, annual leave... really funny... 1st yr - 7 days, 2nd yr - 8 days then until 14 days, they did not wish to pay much. -.-" big company yet so stingy.

went to popular.. i was really money spender.. bought something that was a total of $26+ that was nothing.. tarto cards... -.-" haiz!!! because saw it was 50% discount!! so bought it without thinking. now? regret!!!!

needed to renew my passport. expired in june! then used my mastercard to pay for it... -.-" i no money le.. still wasted so much money....

a day that made me angry about it

21042006(friday)

hmmm.... met up with huying to watch "eight below" that movie.. wow! really touching sia!enjoyed watching this movie which made me cried twice.. hahaa!

met up with lihong after that. she told us about the job that worked at orchard.. sounded not bad so both huiying and i went home to send the resume.

at night around 9+pm, the guy from that company called me about the resume and job. then he also knew that huying was my friend as lihong told that guy before that she had 2 friends to recommand.

here came some problem.. that guy did not call huiying.
then we chated and temper changed due to her way of saying the things... offline after i had enough saying all i should tell her.

22042006(saturday)

well, lots of things happened. got the feeling that current friends were no more with me, but friends who i did not contact long time ago ended up seemed like becoming much closer.

well, it was happened when 2 person had some misunderstanding and some confustion in between. well... nothing to explain as i also stucked in the blurrness or rather forgetfulness.
did cry. well, felt that i was so childish but that was me. i could not change my character of being such a cry baby. if anyone able to "cure" me for that, please try it!! =)

did not meet up with violice but met up with darren. here came the part.. not that i was prefer to guy more than gal but was.. haiz! long story.

coughing non-stop. sob sob. i was thinking what wrong in me. how comei had cough and it was getting more and more serious.
received sms from huiying about sunday event.. so, she believed that everything was all right.

23042005(sunday)

met up with huiying at jurong east interchange and we went all the way to expo to watch the JJ's party concert.

it was a long way to there!! so it was confirmed that we did chat while onthe way to there.
i tried not to talk about job stuffs as i scared that we came to the topic that would me blew up to top. haha.. so lucky.. nothing happened.

reached there.. -.-" thought that this concert did not have many people as we did not see many people walking to the direction that we intended to go.

saw lots of people "cutting queue"... we did not have anything to say.

then here came the stupid part. while i was talking to huiying about that we should buy something as our dinner, there were 2 guys said.. "wah siao.. buy things to eat later want to go to toilet how sia?"

then we talked about we should buy the cd at there(there was a booth just outside the hall which only sold for $18) then that 2 guys said.. "who know here got sell the cd de?? aiyo"
my face was.... -_-" mind was thinking that... "hey!! stop all your nonsense! i am not asking you all these question and you just stop all your answering!~!!"

suay enough.. they were sitting right beside me when we knew where were our seats.
then again.. what we said, they were just answered them back! DAMN.... could not change the seats or we would sitting right behind and we could not take the picture well.

so just ignored them and enjoyed watching the show. lolz! indeeded enjoyed and took quite a lot of pictureS! yeah... and also had the chance for me to use my dad's new camera.. haha!! although only digital zoom, it was still not bad!!

after the concert, we went to find food to eat but so bad... most of the stalls were closed and we only got ourselves a bottle of milk drink as our dinner. sob sob.

in bus.. saw the droplets on the window of the bus. realised that.. droplet, when it was small, it could not do anything unless got another droplet pushed that small droplet along or the bus move in a way that was able to push the small droplet to the end.

then i was thinking... droplet seemed like a human being. when we were lost or lost the ability to do things, in order to continue the way, there should have someone or something
reached home already 11+pm.

-I got nothing to say-

Well, nothing to say. Don't wish to say anymore things.
2 things make me feel this way. well, no point to say anything.

~END~

Sick for 4 days

predict that sickness will last for 1-2 days. unexpected that it turns out to have serious sore throat and cough. so, lesson learnt: do not ever believe that what you think is true.


sunday
went to meet up with sebrina, huiying as sebrina said we were going to EXPO there. well, thought that she wanted to buy clothes as there was a john little's sales at EXPO Hall 6.then we also thought that sebrina might bring us to there City Harvest which now located at there as there was an increased on believers.end up, we really going there... both huiying and i were having lots of question marks above our heads.

enjoyed the drama but... well, city harvest was still the same as what i went last time with violice. forever scary...they also having video camera to let others who sat far away to have a better view. the drama was about how the Good Friday and Easter Day came from. Hmm.. enjoying.

sebrina told us that both her manager and her went to do eye lashes entention.. wow! that made her eyes looked bigger! however, a bit scary that it would drop off.

after that, met up with ivan and also daniel and we went to marina square there to so called celebrated huiying's 20th birthday.went to the "cursed" burger there but we changed to swensons. however, daniel had bought his meal so ivan accompanied him to have meal at there.we order our food plus a topless 5 for huiying as we did not buy any cake for her.sang birthday song for her..daniel had his beatboz for that. we did not sabo her as she seemed like kanna sabo for 2 years in her poly life..

byed to them and we(huiying and I) went to RafflesCity there shop shop. then went home after that.

monday
suay DAY!

went to west mall to buy dvd-r and also bought present for huiying's birthday.. =)
went to fetch brother.. then started to rain. it was not the normal rain but a "fierce" one. both my brother and i hid inside the shettle, the strong wind blew and everyone under the shettle was kanna wet.it was like i just had my bath with my clothes on! really very wet! did not bring umbrella along so called to my mum and asked sister to bring it along. suay.. had umbrella like no umbrella like that. clothes were soaked with water!! yuck... everywhere seem like flooding!
quickly went to do the touchup for huiying's present and printed out.

did not have the time for me to bath as i was late for the meeting with lihong and huiying. so... here came my sickness...waited for bus... really very long... but reached there around 5+pm. so bought the cheese tofu but... my 1st impression changed for this.. haha!walked around centerpoint and we went to buy milkshake. lolz.. still the same... nothing changed. then byed to huiying as her sister wanted her to stay back for a while. while lihong and i went home as she changed her mind to buy her things on tuesday. so took 174 around 6+pm. then it was like... we were in the bus for 2+hrs!! bus kept on stopping which made me felt like vomiting.funny thing was that i took out the fm and listened to the news of what was going on to that traffic. however, that channel kept on talk about language that we did not know at all. while we still waiting, the traffic went smoothly after leaving the ngee ann road there.we saw traffic police was controlling the traffic. we thought that there was accident but we did not see any vehicle.

reached home, wow... 9pm le. then had my bath and went to sleep.

in the middle of the night, i could not stand the headache, whole body very hot and sore throat so woke up and had my medince. then sms to violice to cancel tommorrow swimming as i was totally not well.

tuesday
well, now for the moment, had sore throat.. i was totally unsure how come i had sore throat. hmm... then cancelled all event for today as i was still not well. well.. luckily that i didnt go out as it rained as heavy as yesterday but... when i fetched my bro, my whole body wet again.. suay? lolz..so had a bath after i reached home. this kind did not kanna wet at head so did not have headache.hmm.. just like that.. nothing much to update about.

wednesday
went to POSB there to change my current ATM card to GO! Enchanced ATM card. haha.. thanks for violice for telling me this. well, go to POSB website for more details if wants to apply for this card and is FOC! lolz!!! is a ATM card and also MASTER Debit card. hahaa.. not bad la. thought that everything would go on smoothly but i did not expect that the system which i went to was down... sob sob... thought of asking the person to have "surprise" typed into the card but scared that she would LOL so cancelled this thinking. hahaa..

went out with huiying and lihong at JP. weird that even i was sick i still went out? ya.. because needed to know about what lihong's job was. hmm... then had long john which caused my sore throat turned worse.. lolz! lihong bought a lot!! new black cover shoes, new black pants... but what i could say was that... currently she had black bag, black shirt... then was like.. she wore a 1 set of BLACK series!! wow... told her not to buy black but... lolz...

been "forced" to buy JJ's ablum as huiying wanted someone to go for JJ's party this sunday. well, last time i sponsored her $2 to buy VCD.. now she sponsored me $4 to buy the CD.. wow.. then after bought the CD, opened up the cover and realised that it did not contain any ticket for that. wow! that shocked huiying but we went back and changed it.. haha!

went home. wow... sore throat in GREAT PAIN! i could not even talk well!!

could not sleep at night... the pain was killing me!

sms to violice to cancel swimming for tomorrow! argh..... why again... why my sickness still not yet to recover?? argh... really very gulity for that as it was the second time i said that i could not go swimming with her.

she told me about that at taus area there got a place to look for flowers or something like that. lolz! really looking forward for that day(saturday afternoon). only hope that it will not rain or late for that as i still something on in the evening.

thursday
lolz! lihong got selected for that job after went to interview in the morning. her salary would get more than her expected pay! hahaa... really good for her but.... if she is the perm job at there.. this amount of salary really worth to work on!

as thought that going for a movie(the voucher still with me) but cancelled due to that time slot was not in favour for us and also that i still not in a recover stage. hmm....

tomorrow? hmm.... lets depends le... only hope that i recover as soon as possible....

war will end soon... new beginning starts

about yesterday matter... that really was a long story. people who cannot stand long-winded stuff, please make your way out of here and also that here is a place for me to "say" out my own feeling. whether there is people reading it or not, it does not matter me.

thursday...
did not go to work... then i should make a call to the company that i did not want to work... well, without i called back, it was a sure that there would have people calling me that he was jason... damn... funny part was that he addressed himself as my classmate... -.-" ridiculous ya? that was what i heard from my mum as she was the one who picked up the call. well, as that time i was not around so she just told him that i was away.

so the second time he called, talked all sort of things.. said why did not go to work(this one i should tell them de), was it because that i found a better offer(that was of course.. but everything was over just because of tt company), who bully you(you loh..).. blah blah... however, that made me out of the sudden breakdown... i cried.. he was shocked and asked me not to cry. well, he was like forcing me to go to the company to explain everything... worse thing, he said the same thing(must come ah..) over and over again made me shouted at him that as if i had the chance not to go like that. he was scared.. and i was breakdown...

totally felt like falling sick... totally weak... then saw jason.. damn.. he thought that i was having a fake sick(actually was fake la) and said if i did not mind for him to touch my forehead.. but lucky that time that got people asked him.. so just like that...

then here came the head of HR. we chatted a lot!!! i talked how bad was that jason(really he was a GREAT liar) and how to improve well in the company. wow... that really impressed the head of HR. hmm... she agreed that to void my empolyment.. so even the 1 month salary matter would also void... but... i did not have any proof.. should record down even though i trusted her a lot. funny was that we even talked about my family... wow... she was quite pity for my family... hmm... would that also caused her to let the matter rest?

it was like... i did not know why i kept on asking myself to quit there.... hmm... but the environment there was... haiz!! could not make it... so if anyone want to know which company i was worked with, email me or msn chat... believed that it was not safe to say here.

seemed fine.. wow.. i felt more relaxing compared to the time i was so nervous whenever the phone rang.

after that, as my handphone was switched off for the whole morning, the moment i on my handphone, received few sms.. although that it was my wrong not to switch on my handphone, was that my wrong to that i just received my sms and was so called kanna "scolding" from someone but yet i did reply as soon as i received. well, if you realised that ur sms did not seem "working", you should call to my handphone 1st to check.. sms sometimes was not effective. here, i was not blaming anyone(I NEED TO MAKE SURE 1ST)... but to say that... sometimes, we are unable to walk as fast as time. we cannot be everytime check handphone to see who had sms/call. hmm... explain more next time about this issue... too long to say.

went to buy shiqi's present as i believed that only i had not buy the present yet. lolz.. bought a gift from preious moment.. hmm... not bad la.. but that time i was waiting for darren to book out and accompany me to look for present. however, he booked out late and i had headache(due to the few days of depression plus stress plus kanna some rain while on the way to the company) and needed to rush back home as mum wanted to treat us(won 4D)... so did not meet him and rushed back home after buying shiqi's present.

had a great dinner(costed $107.50).. then headache at that time also recovered. so just like that... ended my day.

today...
everythings seemed back to normal.. however, my fear was still there...

went to meet up with xiufang ans i still bought 2 tea eggs while on the way to her house(scary).

wow.. so many people but... only xiufang and i were her secondary school friends... there was reason why this happened.. well, not safe to say here... but what i could say was that these were caused by someone who sure would be at there... lolz...

had lots of food! lolz.. enjoyed the food a lot.. then chik yee and her boyfriend came too.. lolz!!

then realised that both xiufang and my gift seem like very cheap compared to shiqi's friend who spent $101 watch as her present... well, we had the heart to buy gift... only hope she understood it.

left there around 8+pm after had the cake(durian cake.. sorry, that was not the cake i like but HATE the most)... then realised that darren was sick so bought some food for him... then went to his house and passed it to him. his mum also bought him the food... he did not know it.. -.-"

then around 11+pm after finished watching the news, he accompanied me home. even he was sick, he still did that. quite touched.. haha...

well, just like that... nothing le... ended my chapter of my day. =)

war starts yet ends soon

tomorrow will continue... after having the war in the afternoon.. i am in dead tired....

i end my job

well... see the title of this entry will roughly know what's going on in me.

2nd day of work..
took much earlier bus to work. ended up reached there 1/2 hours earlier. thought that the company had already opened but to my surprise, it DID NOT! just only the operation area there opened. so i really could not imagine that when i started working night shift. that really scary!

i did not have the access pass so needed to force people inside the room to see me. not easy at all as the transparent windows were so small!! well, still managed to let the people inside the room to see me.

saw new people who working night shift. well, greeted each other and just like...

start working but i really got nothing to do as everyone was busy... then it was like impossible for me to be like doing nothing. therefore sure got people felt irriated by me and asked me to do something.

knew about a new malay gal. she was also from np and also same age as me just that she left school 1 year earlier than me and she was studied BIT. lolz... she seemed enjoyed the job but not to me! i some sort of hating this kind of job although seem easy.

ended my day just like that. went to meet violice as harbourfront there for a walk... nothing much for that.

lihong passed her TP with the demerit points of 12.. wow!! she was great compared to me... lolz!

received my acer working pay!! lolz... quite happy as i was really broke!!

received the card from organ transplant unit.. finally they sent the correct card back to me...

while talking to my mum at night, i saw the calendar... =_=" my chinese birthday... and also... clock stuck 12 mn... so my chinese birthday was over!!!


3rd day of working.
again.. took that earlier bus.. stupid... reached company 35 minutes earlier!! so... also doing everything the same things again and again... rot most of the time... then during lunch, i was with gen ans she advised me to leave that company as soon as possible. she was so called was same as me but she did not have the choice as she was already in mid 20s. that day was STRESS! it was like everyone throwing things to her and expected her to have the answer. that really scared me a lot! well, ended up, i made up my mind, i did not want to go there to work... so praying hard that they let the matter rest and just sack me off.

my dad said me stupid for that.. easy job i did not want. but that not the problem... it was the environment.. i did not like there and the way they did things. fainted... then real training was started nest week. so it was like... did not have any reason for me to pay that 1 month of salary to them when they did not bother to treat me more like a perm staff but more to temp staff.

so........... REALLY PRAYING HARD!!!! DO NOT CALL ME OR SUE ME FOR THAT!!

if really they wanted me to pay, i would say that the person who asked me for interviewed said that no need to pay. so if really needed to pay, please ask that person to pay as i was not aware of it even though reading through the agreement was my duty for that.

left company around 5.45pm. gen asked me to leave company with her. well... thought of her advised... it was really that.. i did not like that environment. might be due to too many indians(mentally fear) or what.. i judt did not like that...

i had learnt from my lesson... want to work, no more contract basic. that will be OUT OF QUESTION!

and i started to think.. i was not suitable working in office. really... i totally lost my interest in that. i really did not know why.

now, i really do not want to work.... had a fear of working.

went to meet darren and told him that i did not want to work there.. well, he did not say anything but told lots of TAO. hmm... agreed with him for all his logic. really linked.

then saw siewpeng and chikyee.. lolz! so happy to see them sia!


4th day..
i did not go to work... however my mind could not sleep... but... i felt asleep from 8+am to 9+am.. that time had a dreamt... linked to what we talked about when he accompanied home. then this dream.. hmm.. some sort like a gal want to filrt with him, i was some sort of angry... but that gal like changed her target to me... GEEE!! then i was just like that... woke up... my heart beat damn fast!!!

no call from them(1.10pm) so i believed that they did not even bother about it. so pray hard that everything at there is fine and they don't sue me can le. *praying hard*

mum cooked the main xian + 2 red eggs for me. thanks... my 22 years old reached.... sob sob...


things to do from friday, saturday and sunday:

friday event:-
title: shiqi 21th birthday
organiser: shiqi
involved: me, xiu fang, shi qi, others not sure
location: her house area
time: 6.30pm
others: present but not yet bought

saturday event:-
not yet set/forget

sunday event:-
title:going to expo
organiser:sebrina
involved: me, sebrina, huiying, ivan, daniel
location: expo
time: 1pm
others: secret! will know when that day comes!


*now*
i keep on worry... for that stupid company will call me... switch off my handphone but it is sure that they know my home number... so... really praying hard that they will let the matter rest!! evertime the phone rings, my heart beats really fast... well, i am just gulity as i am really is an irresponsible person. 1st time in my life feel that way.

1st day of perm job

thought of taking the later bus would be good but.. i was kanna squeezed like sandwich... made me needed to leave house early or no more bus for me to take.

at there... waited.... then talked to that jason that if i wanted to quit, did i need to pay. he said no need. that made me had the determintion to quit. then asked him that paper i signed was a contract and he said no.

then met up with the other people in there. they were friendly.. my area there really... mixed countries... lolz...

then had lunch with 2 people... 1 person was guided me to do things.. another person(the only chinese lady) was belong to level 2 helpdesk. then from 1st may onward, the person who guided me and her would be became technical area. mine belonged to business area.

quite stress... as i did not know anything about it. then most of the time i was slacked! lolz... because they did not teach me everything and i could not able to learn everything at 1 go or i would stress to death.

then..... asked the people who went for lunch with me and realised that none of the words which jason said was true.... sob sob... made me had the urged to leave as this company seemed like full of liar...

well... just work le... nothing i could change...

few more hours

sob sob... 9 more hours i need to wake up for my first day of work.

cried again... wah! v sian...

lets pray hard that everything will be all right.

I realised something...

ever since i been offered for this job, i start to think a lot... cry a lot...

there is nothing for me to cry, but somehow realise that this is not i want. that why i feel stress and want to use tears to tell myself that i am stress.

i start to think about my future more. been thinking that what if i only work for few months, will i need to pay the company as i am not working for 1 year? if i able to endure for 1 year, will i still continue working at there? if i able to endure, will i still want to apply for uni? what if i quit and i cannot get any job and that time i do not want to apply for further studies?

that also stress me up... well, at least, i start to think... better than in the past, just only depends on that situation.

last day of my freedom....

nothing much to update... just feel so depress right now.

did not sleep well that ended up made me giddy, did not feel like eating and also felt like vomiting.

however 1+pm after finished all my things, i took a nap... now felt much better.

brother cooked food for me! hahaa... thanks for that but i also got helped!! lolz.....

argh........................... tomorrow how sia!

haiz

yesterday went to sign for that stupid company... ended up gross paid changed!! damn.... i should not sign it yet.. haiz...

well, that that meant that i would be start working on next monday. sob sob... then needed to work for 1 year... DAMN la....

cried after my mum called about it... i felt that i was so useless that why i did not reject. argh....

met up with darren at westmall and also bought dvd to watch.

went home after that then thought that later would meet up but... no matter how many times i called he just did not answer or reply my sms.

that made me worried until i cried.... argh.... why i cried so much in a day.

sob sob.. until 2+am i then went to sleep...

then 5+am he replied me that he was sleepin.... hahaa.. at least i felt much more relax.

sob sob... so many things happened... very stress.... argh...


today both my parents will not be in singapore until tomorrow so all the household chorses will be done by me....

told everything to xiufang... thanks that she really so concerns about me... cried when i was replying her email... i do not know why but just cried... hope that she did not kanna shocked by mu action.. haaa...

haiz... next monday working le... sure i cannot make any friends due to that first 1-2 week is training... suay... only i had training...

so regret to sign that paper!!!! ARGH...................

IT ALL FATE!

yesterday sent an email to the company(jason) that i did not want to work for night shift and hoped that this would make him said that since you insisted the company would not want you this kind of person...

ended up, he asked me to consider... damn... i cried... it was like i did not want this job yet forced myself to go in.

well, he called again... this time i felt that i lost to fate.. so agreed to go. sian... but at least i lost that kind of feeling which i was lost.

i was wondering, why he insisted... sure was because that he did not want to make the effort to tell the top management for that. hahaa... if not that was impossible for a staff like him to keep on asking me to come over to there.

well, been a IT consultant... seem like i cannot go back to the carefree path i used to have right now....

parents will be going to indonseia today until sunday... tons of things need to do and also for the prepartion for the next monday working.

no more going out late as i will be working until night... argh.............

now start to pray hard that i can get along with people at there or i will be suffer!!!

Really want to COL!

fainted... no wonder i felt so weird that these few days/weeks i did not go and find job yet had company asked me to go for interivew... i went to check and realised that i sent the resume to that company on 23 Feb!!! it was like... -.-""""""" until now they then called me that i had sent resume to them... they were really FAST sia.... until now(april le) then received it.

now i was in stress... did not know want to take this job....

but seem like most of them just asked me to consider and not asking me not to work....

my parents: if want to work then go loh. if don't want then just don't go tomorrow.
my friends: your choice bt if you think that you will not work happily then don't work
darren: depends on you whether you want or not. then ask whether they can don't let you do night shift or not.

sob sob... what to do now???

Got a job yet feel unhappy

praying so hard not to been selected for the job... yet... sob sob...

no wondered i got this dreamt that i got a job...

basic salary would not increase... stupid me for only asked for so little amount of salary...

will need to work for weekends 12 hrs!!!

if that the case, got some problem of going for the BBQ which organised by the provrssing unit of Acer.

why sia... why they called me? or this is fate that my job is this? sob sob...

FIRE

reading and replying email seemed became my part-time job. hahaa! well, stayed at home nothing to do what.. haha!

too lazy to find the job right now... now i am still parying hard that the currently interviewed job will not get me in. hahaa...(as if that they sure will pick me like that)

dreamt something unusual... dreamt that my teeth dropped. then others could not remember...

received letter from the organ until centre... wah... they sent wrong card to me!! so needed to sent back the card... sian...

before going to imm, while i was going to open up the door, i smelled of a thick smoke... i turned my head... WAH!!! FIRE!!! i quickly shouted and my mum brought a pail of water and put out the fire... phew.... the fire was BIG!!! if really so... i believed that my family would trap in the fire as the fire was at the exit... the 1 and only 1 exit... my mum scolded my dad for anyhow put the paper and also the burnt insence paper at there.. sob sob... now the wall was in black colour... then the spider web... very ke lian... all turned out to be black de.

went to imm to change the camera which bought on monday. well, told the sales lady that the picture hanged but at there nothing happened... but the camera auto switched off, so she said that got something wrong with the camera so changed a new 1 to me.

walked around the place and also bought the XXL cripsy chicken for my family.. haha..

on the way home, it rained!! so forced myself to run under the rain... however, that caused my leg pain as the injured area kanna been forced to rub against the shoes. so hope that the wound will recover as soon as possible.

reached home, saw the wall... made me thought of the incident in the evening.

then my dad tested the camera.. then also got the auto switched off problem... then we realised that it was because of the battery.. hahaa... so quite sorry for the sales lady as she kanna cheated by the battery...

well, nothing much le... =) ended my day like that.

Interview

sunday
wore like going for a wedding dinner(tube dress) from morning until night. -.-"
many people were looking weirdly at me as such an early morning i was like going to attend wedding dinner later. well, i did not have the choice as in the afternoon i would be meeting up with violice, janis and anthoy for a lunch cum dinner

met up with darren in the morning as i passed him the ipod for his ns. however ipod seemed had some problem so could not bring to the camp.

afternoon met up with violice and we went to IMM there to pay the remaining disposit amount for the photo shot in june next year. seemed like waste of money but that would be my once of my life time had these photos.

met up with janis after that. then we went straight to city hall and walked around there. stupid shoes at this time made my legs super pain!

had lunch/dinner at Han's. hahaa.. not bad the food. after that anthoy came and here came his canon camera! wow.. super good!!!

took pictures and had lots of laughters at there!!

went to buy a pair of new shoes as i really could not take it the pain which caused by my current shoes. sob sob... 1st time in my life bought shoes which cost more than $15.90.. haa.. bought that new shoes for $19.90... i did not have any choice... mum sure would say me buying such an expensive shoes even though others believed that $19.90 was a fair price. my family belonged to those if able to save money, why not save it... hahaa...

violice also bought the same design of shoes(or rather "high class" slipper) as me!! lolz... looked more like sisters.. hahaa!!

we also bought "ice age 2" tickets at there(marina square). the show was funny!! lolz... enjoyed it a lot!!

walked all the way to esplande and had some food to eat.. thanks anthoy that he treated us to eat at there!! ahaa!!!

went to esplande there to take pictures!! hahaa...

took 106 to go home as it was quite late. then on the way... got 2 indians sitting behind(way at the back... the bus was banny->not sure correct spelling) ... then after that i heard some noise and realised that 1 of the indian guy vomited!!! wah... i was shocked while violice was sleeping soundly until the 2nd round of vomiting... the noise waken violice up and i told her that got people vomiting... then we changed seating...

disgusting part came... the yucky smelly liquid started to flood the place as the bus was moving... violice's new shoes kanna it and she was cursed and sweared to that person. janis and anthoy also changed placed soon as they were just sitting in front of us.

that drunk guy cleaned his hand using the seat... i was like... made me thinking that what would happen to the people who sat on that seat... yuck................

before that indian guys left, the indian guy(that 1 that did not vomit), apologised to us for that incident. violice still did not forgive him.

said byed to anthoy and janis as violice was taking cab home. so i accompanied her until she was in the cab.

reached home around 12am. hahaa... kanna scolded but no choice.. haha..


Monday
received call from a company called "mindteck" said that i had sent a resume to the company for the IT consultant. i was puzzled as it been few weeks i had sent resume to any of the company. however, i stil agreed for going for an interview the next day(tuesday)

xiufang kept on asking me to send resume to her company as she was really very stress at her work place... well, just sent it.

that person, jason(mindteck), kept on calling me for this and that. wah! very fan sia... then the working hours was LONG! well, he asked me the expected pay 1st then told me about the working hours... argh.... wanted to change really difficult.

went to centerpoint for the mtm free trial stuffs but.... it BLUFF! only went there to tell you the problem of the face then said about their product... damn... just a 135ml of product would need to cost $89!!! then it was a basic things that it needed a cleanser, toner and moisturer... wah.. for that would cost $200+. siao... although it been a long time i wanted to go there ever since saw the ad on TV.. but heard that it was soooo expensive... it already tick off this kind of thinking.

went to my house there bus stop to wait for parents as they were going to jurong east there to buy camera. haha... so went to imm there to buy... it was quite great even though it was a taiwan brand. my family did not need to buy branded stuffs... as long as able to use it would be good enough.

went home after that... nothing much... then went to sleep.


tuesday
received picture from anthoy.. haha! looked so funny in the picture...

then also that received call from that jason.. wah lao... he was really very fan leh.. like very scared that i would not go for the interview like that.

then went for the interview... very sian... 2 people interviewed me... well, talked rubbish most of the time.. haha... then talked about the job scope... blah blah blah... complex sia!!!

well, still not sure would be selected... well, the shift work really tough... so praying hard that they would not choose me as i really did not send any resume to that company...

xiufang apologised to me about the job at her company as she received confirmation that next monday would have a lady came to assist her... lolz... it was all right. that meant that it was fated that her company had found people to help her..

well... sian... haha... time to sleep...

yupei's birthday

no picture today...

woke up early to bring my brother to school for tutition. nothing much until evening met up with darren to buy yupei's present. so went to cityhall there to buy a necklace for her. darren said that necklace nice so bought it... hahaa...

went to his house for a while and tian fu came to fetch us to yu pei's house. hahaa... tian fu got his own car.. when would be mine?

quite many of the people came... then celebrated then went home.

tomorrow had many things to do.... ARGH....