chinese new year

next week will be chinese new year!

company will have half day on 6th! and all the way to 15th half day...

at that time... jorge, derek and winson will be on their trip to china...

plan plan plan

yawn... going to 2am and i have yet to sleep...


sian...

sian

darren called and "reported" to me where he went...

really a bit could not imagine that they could stay in 1 location until 4am... just chatting...


well, do not wish to think so much... because that's only make me headache.


got watch animal planet??? wow! really cannot believe that there were so many things which we could not imagine....

such as...

living with tiger...
help fishes to brush teeth...

weird~

sian

i did not really have a deep sleep last night... well, in actual fact, i do not have deep sleep every night at all. just that yesterday was more lighter than usual time.

should i complain here?

hmm... my blog what... i cannot complaint meh?

haha...

stupid... i talk to myself again.


yesterday went to jurong point to windown shopping... bought a total of around $30 of things.... 16.50 for comics, 9.90 for eye linder, 3.00 for facial tissue, 1.50 for battery, 2.80 for facial foam..... then withdrew 900 for my mum... kao!!!!

mum kept nagging me why until now i have gave her the bonus.... -____-"" i only got 400 for bonus nia... sian part was that she kept telling my that my cousin gave 1000 to her mum and 100 to my grandma. i was like... "mum... she is working in goverment sector leh! i only in private limited nia... how to compare?"

ended up? i gave her 200... 50 for dad and 50 for grandma... at least now she did not say anymore...

yesterday suddenly took out so much.... heart pain and afraid kanaa rob as that time was already 10+pm le.


here came the angry part...

darren told me that he would end his poly gathering around 10pm.... ended up? he went home around 4am....

his "friend"'s belated birthday if not wrong and he did not tell me who. so roughly knew who was that "friend".

okay.. did not tell me this was all right.. because i should give me some privacy and not dig out everything...

the most angry part was that i waited at him at jurong point until 10+pm as he said he would come over to fetch me home.

ended up???

until i reached home... he was still there....

until i went to sleep at 1am.... he was still outside....

until 4am... he then smsed me that he had parked the car at the car park and on the way home.

he was surprised that i was still awake (i woke up because of the mobile's virabation)...

can anyone tell me... until that time then went home, can say that they went to club? haha... only clubbing can stay until that time what...




that time, i was thinking, guy's words sometimes cannot be trust... i am glad that i did not wait until 4+am or i can be the most stupid person in this world.


all he could reply was "sorry"...





haix! ok.... vexed out my anger le... all i need to go home early and sleep early..... i lack of a lot of sleep...

hohoo

derek got facebook sia....

go to find "derek lai" and if u saw a baby photo... ya! that is the 1....




just now derek asked how come i looked so sian and "old"... kao... he can be fortune teller liao.. haha...

indeed... i am very sian early in the morning...

life man... sian! sales job... more sian!

i nearly say bye bye to this world

i nearly say bye bye to this world....

just when i was on my way to darren's house (at bukit view secondary school that minor road to bukit batok control station that major road), i nearly kanna accident....

the big bus at the right, blocked my vision as i wanted to turn right. i thought there was no bus, so made a turn....

to my horrified, i saw a black car drove in fast speed and drove toward me!!!

i accelerated and made a quick turn.... luckily that time there was no vehicle at another side or....

i already said bye bye to this world...



i am glad that i am still alive updating the blog....

today my mood was not that good.... feeling super not right.... and i cried...

a lot of things just did not get it right. i feeling down but i just did not know how to explain....



i like to keep everything to myself... just like what derek described me...

i do not like to talk much... yet i sometimes hate to be alone...

i do not like to quarrel... yet i will shout out at here...

i do not like to be sandwich... yet i always stuck in between...

i do not like to do sales.... yet my golden mouth just do not want to open and say it out...



after i finished typing the above sentences... i think again to myself....

why must i have so many "i do not like" when i only have 1 life to live on?

why can't i be more happier than throwing so many saddness to myself?

i do not know why i am turning to be like that?

where is my old self?? or not because i lose my old self... but because of this realtic force me to turn like that? haha...

i am very tired in this world... or rather... tired of my life... or better still... tired of my JOB!

when can i got my accounting job???

i am tired le...

i am tired le....

i really cannot continue in working in my current company...

boss stressed manager and manager talked to me regarding sales report...

he gave me some choices to choose....

1. continue to work outdoor sales-provided that getting more sales calls and send out quotations and most importantly, GET SALES!

2. work as indoor sales-no need to do any sales report and no sales target to hit but 1 problem is that there will not have any transport and mobile allowances.

3. work in other areas

right now, because of the car, i need to work for 1 more month of outdoor sales.

i nearly cried... because there was an invisible STRESS floating around the room.... i hate stress... but see which type of stress... not all stress i hate. haix!

i want an accounting job which located near raffles place....... god please.... grant me my wish....

long time...

it seemed like years i did not update... well, really got nothing to update also...



last sunday
Had F1 lesson at main campus!!!! what the hell was that??!!! even sunday also got lesson? ya. this school was very weird...

since it was at main campus, darren would drive to the smelly tofu there to have a bite for that. indeed, the smell was still so yucky!!! i really could not put that into my mouth!!! other than smelly tofu, we also ordered this.... the red bean ice (hong dou bing).... that was totally out of our expected.... milk (those in tin type) plus water (a lot) plus red bean plus ice.... FAINT!

of course, after that i went for lesson while he went to fetch her mum and aunts to chinatown.

lesson was somehow bored.


Monday to thursday....

i could not remember anything....


friday
drove to tuas area and saw this...

lorry was in a BAD shape... i took this picture at a very far distance....

after work, went for lesson, i almost felt asleep... lesson was bored. most important thing was that.. my seat was kanna "steal" by a group of china people... argh! already studied at there for so many lesson le still doing that... i really did not know what they were thinking loh!

saturday

went over to darren's house and we went to seng siong to buy some drinks for chinese new year!! nothing much also.. after that they played mahjong... it was their routine... haha!

went home after that. nothing much...

sunday

darren working... so i brought my family to my aunt's there... before going... i did something to my hair....

haha... this year i believed that i did not have any time to do my hair.... and mum said that why should i spent the money on dying the hair when right now i had a black hair... that was only for old people (dyed hair to cover white hair...) and you already getting used to straight hair... why bother to spend the money to perm... you will sure regret it... argh....

well... see how le. i did not know whether i wanted to do or not....

some photos taken when i was at there... too bored bah.. haha!!


then drove to toh guan there.....

the curly part was going to straighten back again... haix!

then drove to jurong west.... then drove back home.... this time my mum paid for the petrol! hahah.... i was really broke.... could not afford to pay anymore petrol when darren right now did not pay for it.. *OPPS** haha...

next wednesday, 6th and 13th, i did not have any lesson!! hohohooo!!! happy because i did not need to spend time to study for test!!! haha.... very sian was that 14th i still need to go for lesson even though i did not need to work on that day... sian loh!

now... i have yet to prepare anything for darren.... can any1 suggest what i should buy for him?

what i have bought before for him....

-tie

-shirt (both formal and casual)

-belt

-wallet

-card holder (formal)

-perfume

-watch

-pen (he just bought it only...)

-bag (for travel)

i thought of buying those "buttons" which put at the wrist of the shirt... but, is there anything better suggestion? for handmade de, i was also thought of that... hmm.... blur blur...

i am bored

my my...

my client asked me to go for a talk. hmmm....

asked jorge wanna to go.... and he asked me to ask derek.. -_-"

smsed to derek, he said he will be visiting hospital.

well, i am still thinking wanna to go.... because if not wrong, i will be alone at there....

oh my god~

yesterday went to meet violice and janis... thought that meeting imm but changed venue to westmall when i reached jurong east interchange. phew!

had a drink at mos burger and went home.

asked my brother to record "the golden path" since i was not at home at time. haha.. later will go home and watch it!

reached home, on laptop and read chik yee's blog and got to know that jia yan was going to get married... around May!

so happy and shocked to hear that. she is going to be tai tai soon!

cloverfield

friday

1st time took mrt to school. hohoho.... because i had 1 hr off and would deduct from my annual leave....

the travelling time was nearly 1 hour! that was too long!

luckily still managed to reach class on time.


had a 1.5hr earlier as lecturer was not feeling well. so 9pm left the school and reached home around 10.10pm.


saturday
went to watch mid-night movie with darren. we watched cloverfield at causeway point.

the most stupid show i was ever watched in my life....

well, it made me sick.... not because the show was digusting but because of the way the shot the movie.... not only i felt that way, 99% of the people at there felt the same too.... it was the 1st time saw so many people in and out of the threate... haha...

ending? no ending..... only knew that the main characters died.... the monster??? not sure at all.....


as violice got the free ticket for this movie, i smsed her that it was not worth to watch.... and she did not reply. so i was wondering whether she was angry about it as i went to watch 1st.


sunday
lesson at 2pm at main campus. sian!!!
luckily that there was no test! but next wednesday would have 4 units test... sian also....

stayed at darren's house for the rest of the day and went home around 10pm.

phew, violice was not angry. well, not sure whether she going to change the movie or not..


monday
tired!! i really did not like the stress feeling... abby not around for 1 month... long long long...

ah fang ya..

ah fang... I no time to add the links. give me some times ya..

tuesday meeting

well, actually thought that it would be a big group of people coming along... but ended up? 4 people plus me.... haix. a bit disappointing as some other people like siew peng and kim lim were the people who i did not meet quite long ago....

yet really did not expect that weiling would be able to make it and she reached imm the earliest.

we had our dinner at... see the cup in the picture will know where we were...

took pictures time...



realised something? weiling and xiu fang were having short hair... sitting together... while shi qi and i were sitting at the other side. well, it was just coincidence... i realised it when i was writing this. haha..

a great fun. hehe...


wednesday
nothing much leh. went to interview at chio lim stone forest for accounts assistance position... hmm... i lost my way to there... not only that, the interview lasted for 1 hour!! Luckily it was very near to my school or i could cry... haha....

scored 30/50... kao!!! from the 1st time 40/50 to 2nd time 37/50 to now... haix! dropped too much le.

thursday
darren fetched me to school... hohohoo... it seemed like years since he fetched me. haa.. joking...

lesson was okay. all were those which taught during secondary school time.... but did learn something new. haha...


friday
IT'S FRIDAY AGAIN! yeah....
darren working... so today i would be going to school alone. this time intend to take mrt to there instead because i could leave office at 5pm. hohoho...

sian

early in the morning, i was in a super sian mode...

it seemed that i drove passe the road when it was red light again... and again... with cameras around!!!!

super sian.... super sian.

now i do not know whether i will kanna or not. i already left with 12 points... if really kanna, i did not have point left le.

but the problem right now was that... not that i wanted to do that. the vehicle in front of me was way too big and block my whole view!

haix..

now only pray hard hard that i will not kanna.... i really start to hate driving... argh...

i realised that i started blogging only after year 2004... and i wanted to read something happened on year 2003...

time flies, now is already year 2008...


jz 2 years ago, i was wondering whether there was any changes in my relationship life. glad that nothing much happened for these 2 years...

jz 1 year ago, i was wondering whether there was any changes in my friendship life. glad that nothing much happened too...

i should have glad and thanks god...


i really wish to shout out from here.... but thinking again... better not to....








i only want a simple life. i have complex life and thinking so much things...

haix...

singapore discovery centre

some of the photos took few days ago...

fireworks on new year day...

black cat at geylang on 5/1/2008...



gifts from janis (bought from japan)


blue black on 7/1/2008

2nd time been to singapore discovery centre even though i drove passed there so many times...

now finally have a chance to go there. all thanks to darren! haha... **Note: is a free entry for us**

in actual fact, there was noithing much to see at there....

quite bored actually... even though there was 2 movies (3D and 2D), it was really very boring.. hiax.

so, we went to the next location... just beside singapore discovery centre....

have a chance to play with the gun... ended up i did not shot anything!!! argh...

went to darren's house and evening time went to buy some drinks at seng siong for chinese new year.

then went back home....

friday

finally... IT'S FRIDAY!

friday comes a late...

and now already passed 12pm!


today there is no lesson! hohohooo....

turning crazy soon

i really going to crazy soon... i have a thought of just quit my current job and do not care about the bonus and stuffs....

i really HATE sales a lot.... especially this kind.. hiax. so hate myself for intend to give it a try in the beggining and now stuck and throw the stress to myself!

haix.... god, please give me an accounting or other jobs but no more sales!!!!

accounting

does anyone knows which company is hiring for accounting position and does not really need to have experience.

do tell me ya as i want a BIG switch from my current job.

MC king...

It is sad to know that MC king, jimmy, passed away so sudden on last friday.

my accountant stated in her MSN message that MC king passed away that afternoon. i was wondering which "MC king" she was referring to and that point of time i just did not want to believe that it was the real MC king...

haix... i got to know this person when i was in primary school time. who asked him to have such a similar name as mine? haha.. just because of that, i had a great impression on him...

did not expect that he passed away at the age of 40.... such a young guy yet passed away so sudden...

heard from news that thousands of people went to see him for the "last time". when i read the news, i also cried...

although everyone keeps saying that we should treasure every moment of our time but do we really do it? nope! we only know how to say but not in action. haix...

good bye MC king.... We will remember you forever...



saturday
met up with darren for breakfast and went home after that. evening time left house as i had lesson at geylang there... stupid.... why must the main campus at there??!!!

darren super like to eat the smelly tofu at there. i felt like vomiting!!

test started! i thought tha i could get 45/50..... yet i got 40/50!! kao... super sad!!! every page would have 1 wrong!!! haix...

andy tan only wanted the people who scored 40 and above to hand in the paper.. hohoh... not sure it was for what.

lesson ended super early. thought that it would be 10pm but 9pm he already released us!!! ate our money huh...

called darren to pick me up as you know la... that geylang there very unsecure de... guys kept looking at the gals de... no matter was pretty or not.

nothing much loh. went home after that.


sunday
brought parents to orchard and we went to commonwealth there the seng song. smaller than what i expected.... then went home after that while me after sending them home, went to westmall popular there to buy some stationeries and then went home.


monday
such a lucky day. derek wanted me to pass some goods to the customers in jurong island. everything just so smoothly.

there was a company which needed to take their shuttle bus instead of driving in...

in everyone's mind, security guard should looked like uncle but the securiy guard whom i saw, he only looked like around 20+. and he looked like a actor in HK....

then he really... kao. did not know what to say loh. asked me to wait for bus and ended up the bus left me!!! (NOTE: i 1st time been to there and did not know how the bus looked like) then he asked another security guard where was the bus... then he asked 1 of the people who driving lorry to send me to there because he also going there. so lucky... if not i did not know how long i needed to wait...

then the driver very funny and said, "they are very funny loh. got bus yet ask me to send you to here.." haha...

reached that place. passed them the goods and decided to leave... then realised that i did not know where to wait and when the bus would be coming. then lucky that 1 of the vendor was about to leave there and he gave me a ride back to the guard house.

kao... only until i received his name card and got to know that it was the GM and got a honor degree... wah.... made me super embarassed as i really talking rubbish while on the way back to guard house.

nothing much. went to meet darren for dinner and went home after that.


tuesday
well, not that feeling well after about to go for work. i was hestiating whether i wanted to work or not and finally i decided to sms derek, jorge and eloise that i would not be coming to work later.

wentt o polyclinic and that was the bad choice! from 9.15am waiting for doctor until around 11.00am to reach my turn!! and went in for less than 5 minutes... doctor realised that i seemed lack of blood and asked me to go for a blood test... that costed $8.... kao... it turn blue black and in pain!!!
then around 11.20am the doctor asked me in again and noticed that everything was fine.... then when asking her why this and that, she seemed could not answer!! nah... what the hell...then went to take medicine at 11.30am... overall only $19.50 but it waste a lot of my time!!!

then helped darren to transfer money dunno to who after that and met him at westmall.

nothing much. we went to watch "alien vs predator 2"... kao! super GROSS~

then went back to his house to watch the golden path and went home.


very tired... i want to sleep...

hungry

yesterday was a tough day...

after work at 6pm, rushed all the way to car park and drove the car to the campus.

so lucky that there was no jam so reached there quite early.

yet i did not have my dinner... i was so hungry!!!

lesson ended so late!!! so reached home already 11+pm le.

i really could not imagine if it happened everytimes....

tired

such a tired day for me...

last sunday went to chua chu kang there (near farmart) to play with the fishes... that day i was in a bad mood. mum scolding me once i stepped out of the house in the morning....

well, finally i felt better when i was playing with the fishes... there was a kind of fish was called "healing fish"... haha... i got to know this fish from xia xue's blog click here to see the video on how the fishes looked like.

it is good to go there once a while. ha... the fishes are able to eat up yor dead skin....

on monday, there was a half day off. hohoh... thanks god! li hong must work full day on that day...

then went home for a while and went out to meet violice at suntec. had dinner at piza hut. realised that it was already 8+ to 9pm le. so smsed to kylie that i could not make it to meet them.

then walked all the way to marina square there to wait for the fireworks. a nice 1. took mrt home to bukit batok and violice walked with me back home. thanks a lot for your concerns ya!

tuesday was the new year day!! nothing much actually. went to meet darren in the morning and went home at night.

yesterday was my 1st working day of the year. well, still in blues... wednesday blues! haha... derek talked to me what to do for this year blah blah blah... then i was thinking... "i already do not want to work le... still tell me so much for what... don't they feel that i do not want to work? hah. my acting is good huh? haha.."

stupid derek... he said that he could not allow me to leave 15 min earlier everytimes. kao! so i leave office at 6pm yesterday.

darren sent me to there as i did not know where it was... wah.. traffic jam like siao yesterday. i really did not know what to do if i were the one driving...

the lecturer was super like to go travel around and like to take his pictures!!! the beginning of the lesson he already "showed off" where he had went to...

lesson was not bad. at least i understood what he was talking about.

ended at 10.05pm. so had something to fill my stomach and went home. it was already 12mn...

slept at 1+am.... very tired....