argh

OMG....
i felt sleepy!!! this made me worried.... i was afraid something which i did not want it to happen will happen and i will not know what to do....


early in the morning went out for appointment and that person was not around!!! a bit wasting the trip but at least i had done my job. so yes... able to write that into my sales report.

thought that there will have another appointment on 11am but postphone to 2pm. and also lcuky to make a last minute appointment around there... phew... or this trip would be quite wasted.

the car's low fuel sign is blinking!!!! no money to top up.... how???

later will be going over to violice's house to take keke!!! and violice will be going to genting for 3 days... hope she will be fine at there and will not affect by the ghost storied she heard from her colleagues, family and friends. hehee..

long long long time again..

it been a long time since i update again.

i cannot remember much about anything in the past few days....


wednesday - thursday
went to meet violice on wednesday. nothing much..
thursday... i could not remember....


friday
met darren after work and went to watch spiderman 3. i should not watch it at all... it was a long hours sitting at there and i fell asleep halfway.... wasted!! and this could tell me that the movie was not a good one.


saturday
went out with my family in the afternoon. did not expect that darren went home at time. but i had agreed to meet violice. so no choice. met violice in the evening at her house. played with keke but she bite me until it bleed.... wednesday i will be bringing her to my house to stay for 3 days! hohoo....

thought that we might go clubbing but did not expect that violice did not bring her NRIC. so we went to have dinner and went home.


sunday
went to wash car in the afternoon... then went back home at night. could not remember what was going on in between...


yesterday
it was my 1st time really went for more than 1 appointment by myself. left office around 10.20am but started driving at 10.35am.

managed to find the place which i wanted to visit. but everything was in a RUSH! because 3 appointments were shattered at 3 different buildings!!! I hate rushing but i did not have the choice.

managed to clear all appointments in 1 hour but did not know that i was in that area for more than 1 hour. so the IU charged me $1.50 instead of $1.

This time, i did not miss my way back to office. it was the most hapy day for me as i did not make much mistakes during meetings and driving.

had lunch with derek and abby near lotai area. nothing much special at there.

went back to office and started doing my things. it was not easy to find people and make appointment as everyone just wanted to keep away from sales people and people like us also wanted to keep away from other sales person.... that seemed complicated...

nothing much. trying to call to other companies for appointments but they just kept saying they were not interested... hahaa... i must getting used to such "attack".

both antonius and i were like "talking" but we were using emails. i did not expect that he was a chinese! and we talked about studies, work... he intended to work in singapore (he is an indonesian who having company attachment in singapore)....

went to meet darren after work. went to jurong point for dinner and left. he really good in buying time!!! i was so angry with him yesterday for the action he did. well, he apologized and i accepted.


today
i now then knew that antonius did not like to go out with girls who having boyfriends. well, i really hate people who thought that way. but he had his reason for that so i kept quiet. by the way, antonius was my client and he was few months older than me.

then the whole day, i slacked in office and did not go out. not that i did not want to go out but i could not find any company for appointment. so no point going out and also boss was overseas.

i was so sleepy today... kept falling asleep....

tired again

it been week that i did not update.

did not have much time updating in office as been busy!!


thursday
ivy was the last day working with us as eloise would be coming over on monday... so jorge asked abby to order pizza and we had that for lunch...

darren about my problems and he understood my situation. well, i kept making him angry as i did not want to tell him anything in the beginning.


friday
went to meet violice at jurong east... stupid me... i drove a long way to there as i still did not familiar with the place... i meant the road. then walked around jurong east entertainment and drove violice home...


saturday
i made darren angry again... because of jealously... in relationship, really there should have trust in each other.


sunday
went to geylang with my family... this time my dad was driving the car. then drove around there... then went to toa payoh to have our dinner...

then aso nothing much... went home after that.

got to know that.... my dear friend, rui sheng, going to have a girlfriend soon!!! haha.. i kept asking him as i saw the pictures in his friendster... hohohooo.... waiting to hear his good news!


monday
AHH!!!! 3am in the morning.... i did not know why..... it was soooooo embarassing!! it happened while i was sleeping. it seemed that my body totally could not control itself le. it totally never ever happened in the past... not to say when i was a child... so, everyone should know what going on... haiz.....!!! it made me could not sleep after that....

eloise was back. everyone was in ease as ivy did not do a lot of things at that time...

went for appointment with derek. he was the one who driving. haha... then we drove around the industrial park to take note the companies' names...

went to meet darren after that... went to yishun there... however, i not feeling well... so went home after that.

i kept making ruisheng super paiseh in msn... hohoohoooo... and also telling him about msn plus live!. hahaa....


today
giddy again. i been thinking... what was the problem...

early in the morning, my laptop was not right.... so drove car to jurong east acer service centre... so heng was that everything went smoothly. then on the way back.... KAO!!! i drove all the way to AYE!!! siao liao man...then drove all the way to jurong port..... while derek called and asked me where i was, i cried!! because i lost my way back to office!!!! so i tried my best to get out of the place... phew... luckily that everything was fine after that. spending 1+hrs just trying to get out from there.

then after that went out with derek for appointments... this time he would be driving. phew...

after work, drove the car to darren's house and he drove me home while he drove the car to meet his friends.

watched tv the whole night... going to sleep soon...

i am sad

i am sad... sad until i cried...

doubts

ever since the miscalculation part happened, i been thinking, "am i belong to this line?"

i hate sales seriously. in actual fact, i do not ever think i will join this sales line as i did not like to talk at all.

i need to able to handle rejected calls, meet clients, explain to them the products, driving, processing.... this is really a tough job. however, for the sake of everything, i need to endure... only hope that from endure can change to enjoy working in this line.

yesterday received news from darren that someone died in the bukit batok nature park as he was on duty. i was shocked as it did not really rain and how come tree would fall and crashed the lady...

the work in my office.. i spent the whole day calling for appointment but among 9 calls, 2 bother to say okay. yet i did not know whether they would buy or not. stress...

then nearly afternoon time, i did not know why, i went to calculate the amended pricing for 1 of my client and....... i miscounted it! i was so shocked and nervous and tried to call my client about the mis calculation... i did not know how many times i tried to call but he just did not pick up.. i was so tired. so had lunch after that. did not manage to clear my food. not only because of the pricing, the rice so not well cooked.. totally no mood to eat.

around 2pm, i called and he finally answered. said that he already submitted to his boss could not change.... i was nearly fainted.... he said he would try his best.. so i could only waiting...

in the meantime, i tried to call other companies for apointment. haha.. i just too tired after stressing too much in the pricing part. ended up just called 9 of them.

around 5+pm, email to client for the situation now and he asked me to sleep well and not to worry. i was like... REALLY??! not sure. my mind just could not rest at all...

met darren after work. he went for appointment while i waited inside the car. then went to see angela and her baby at KK hospital. the baby was so small.... but cute. hahaa...

then after that went to newton there to eat. then after that sent her home and darren sent me home as i was not feeling well. then here, A called. hahaa... well, i had no energy to talk much about her. she just called and hang up.

reached car park, i felt like going to faint. but still managed to walk back home.

reached home, told mum about the accident and realised that she was someone who i saw few years ago. sad to know about this accident. and that made me realised that life was so precious!

online for a while and did not expect would online until 12+am.. too tired. i needed to sleep...

today, i felt sleeply! HELP!!!!

i am stress

I AM STRESS!!!! ARGH........

now i really do not know what to do.... i keep calculate wrongly!!! aRgH!

god please.... give me the power which will not let me make any silly mistakes.....

haiz.... now really need to pray hard that the client is allow to change the pricing.... haiz haiz...

everyday tired

this week is really a jialat week.
so many things needed to do when jorge and derek were not around. but luckily was that not in a chao matter.

sunday-monday... could not remember anything as too tired and did not wish to talk about it.

today? nothing much also. realised that i made a most stupid mistake.... haiz. now just hoping that the client would change the price or i really going to be killed by derek.... *praying hard*

getting tired and tird

today was the most tired day ever!

thought that derek and jorge were not around, there would not have much work to do.

out of my expected, espically when there was only 1 PO and lots of inquiries, i seemed like forcing myself to be multi-tasking.


went to appointment to tuas with winson. i still did not dare to talk when someone who i knew was just beside me. nothing much.. went to a place where sew gloves. borrowed some gloves and started doing my stuffs.

very sian. someone quoted half as cheap as mine! what to do? off the offer loh...

then in the afternoon, winson was not around, so i forced myself to go for appointment myself as the place was just beside my building!! hahaa...

nothing much too... told them that i took over branden's account and here i was, introducing them what was it....

then went back to office...

went home around 6.45pm and drove all the way to bukit panjang to celebrate mother's day.
mum was giving me black face for the whole night. i just did not get it why she wanted to make this situation to become like this. then got to know that was because of the car key....

i was wondering, if dad wanted to drive my car, by all means and just asked the key from me will do, unless darren needed to use the car also.. then got nothing to say about it.

do not since when, i easily made mum angry... and i hate most was that she did not even bother to tell me what going on. well, i really need to get married soon or working in overseas or whatever... she just did not trust me at all.

as i forgot to bring my documents and money for sunday online sales, i asked derek for permission.. phew, luckily i got asked as he told me that even he himself also needed to ask for permission if he intended to come over office to do his things.

tonight was so surprise... zong hua again chat with me, then derek, jorge, jason and ruisheng. hohoo...

really needed to thanks zong hua for concerning what going on about this week.

hmm... time to sleep! later will have lots of things to do!

insecure

I do not know why.. ever since getting the car, i have an super insecure feeling.

I am afraid of a lot of things!! of course thats include relationship.


yesterday, went to have dinner at westmall with darren, saw doreen and her.. hmm... believed should be her boyfriend.

nothing much. they did not want to sit with us as we were at 4 seaters table.

then after that, went home while darren drove the car to meet his friends. as he used my car key, i needed to have it back or how was i going to get to office?

so i waited... and waited... and waited. until around 11.30pm and i went to sleep. around 12+am he then called and passed me the key.


today
early in the morning, tried to find my car at the car park.. then in the car, saw his jacket and a packet of.... hmmm.. sweets??? kao.... he said that should not have any food in the car to prevent xiao jiang to come over and stay.. and yet i saw that packet of thing!! haiz... sad la. -edited- i checked le... it was manget.... lolz... my mistake.

then, went for seminar with winson early in the morning... kao. i nearly felt asleep sia...

nothing much... reached office at 2pm and started to do my work!

then time went so fast!! hohoo..

everyday tired

seem that there will not have a day when i can feel i am refresh! i am so tired everyday!!!

somehow, i was able to fall asleep finally but i was still quite worry for my car whether i have locked it or pull hand brake or anyone scratch the car or... well.... lots of "ors" in my mind which made me could not sleep well...

want to fall asleep soon...

client is always an unreasonable creature

now i finally realised that clients are always an unreasonable creatures!!! talked so big yet did not see who's wrong!! kao...

well, now feeling better le. phew.

thinking back, this week is not a good week for me!

very tired

saturday
well, somehow managed to see that "eddy" in the bus. hmm.. quite ok. then after that, went to suntec to have something to eat...

these are our food... i managed to finish mine but not violice.

after that, went to bugis for a walk... hmm... nothing to buy at there also...

then went to city hall, raffles plaza and she bought this to me.

i was surprised as i already received gift from her before my birthday.

really thanks for this GUESS bag. thanks a lot!

sunday

nothing much. and also i could not remember what going on on that day....

monday

waiting time to pass to get my car!

well, not very excited to get my car also.. derek drove winson and me to there.. so winson would be sitting beside me to guide me how to get back to office.

i was nervous!!! but still managed to get back to office whole piece! hahaa...

then jorge did not come. so no more birthday dinner for me. haha... well, already expected such thing would happen.

then after work went to meet darren. went to loyang temple there to wash car. then drove back to my home.

asked my brother to bring all the necessary things down to put inside the car. everything seem ok until i drove back to car park... darren and my brother were with me.

haiz.. i very lousy in parking!!! spent around 15 minutes just to park the car.

then goldwin drove over and sent us back...

then here, my mum having black face when we reached home... sure got something happened and confirmed linked to me as my mum did not talk to me at all.

i was thinking, should be because mum asked me before that... who would be the 1st person to sit in your car? (not include company)... haiz. just a big headace...

i had a serious depression on that point of time. i kept crying and crying. lihong was online and i told her. i hate to be the food in between 2 breads!! it made me felt so suffering!!! hmm... what she said was right. i needed to balance everything... then to my surprise, zhong hua also chatting with me. hmm.. i did not tell him what was going on as not to make too many people to get worry about it.

i could say, did not sleep at all for the night. i kept thinking about kanna accident or waiting too long in the car.. kao.. just like that really made me cried out of the sudden...

today
alarm clock rang at 7.45am and was time to wake up. had a swollen eye bags and dark circle plus headache and giddy made my day in a lousy mode.

went to take my car, i was so afraid that i would knock any car or people... haiz.. but lucky was that there was no car beside it!! hehee...

felt refresh after a while and started driving down.. luckily everything was fine!

reached office in 15 minutes. hahaa.... or rather, 5 minutes? lolz...

then during lunch time, jorge, derek, winson and abby was sitting inside my car and we started to drive out to IMM to have our lunch.

went to bay street 21. tasted not bad... lolz...

then now in office. shoes going to spoilt!!! yet they did not let me have a chance to buy my shoes!! sian...

bloodly hell

my car

this afternoon received call from lynn that i would be getting my car on next monday. so right now i could register for season parking first.

i was quite shocked as yesterday lynn just telling me that it did not take such a fast time to get the car.. blah blah blah... now she then told me would be getting on next monday.

told jorge that i would be getting my car on monday afternoon. so should be going for appointment after that as i had an appointment at 3pm.

jorge and derek told me what to do before getting the car.. thanks a lot.

intended to tell darren but he was busy. so later will be telling him about it.

now just feel want to sleep after lunch.... yawn....

happy birthday

a Happy birthday to me..
these are the people who get to wish me before 3rd may ended...
joey
zhonghua
lihong
xiao ming
kelly

these are the people who get to wish me today...
chik yee
nicole

these are the people who get to wish me through their blog...
sebby

thanks a lot for everyone who remember my birthday. some of them got to know when friendster sent them a birthday alert. lolz... no matter what, really appreciated everyone who remember!


everything got get normal after i got to receive lynn's call that they had received the money from bank and they started registering for my car.

went to meet darren at 6.30pm and we went straight to mount faber. had dinner in cable car..

thought that it was a romatic event but ended up we felt like vomiting all the fod out after taking the 2nd ride.. we were not used to stay in the "floating" object for too long. so we suggested to have our dessert to be served outside.

i prefered to have outside as it did stop the giddiness and it was quite quiet... then had roses and cake from darren. haha.. thanks thanks... these are the pictures taken...











the above pictures was only for display. people like us who sit on this would confirm collaped because it made of.... go and guess bah...

then after that, we went to... hmm... did not know where it was.. seemed like a park... there was a bridge, so we went in. kao... so high and super quiet!!! so we quickly left there.. then heard a malay guy shouted very loudly.. but he was shouting towards the plant and air!! kao... scared me sia.... so quickly left that place...

went home. darren asked me go and pray pray.. so i was thinking was it because what i said at there...

slept at 1+am.. got to know that exxonmobil caught fire. derek felt so heng that he just went there yesterday!!! loolz..


today, thought that my company would hold a celebration for me as everyone knew about it. but so suay that it was raining in the morning.. then when about to reach office, received call from jorge that winson was down. so would be reaching ofice at 9.30am. so asked abby along to the coffeeshop around there.

realised that it seemed everyone was down.. derek 1st, followed by jorge. then abby was mc on wednesday and now was winson.. seemed like i was the fittest among them.. haha.. but geting coughs these days especially when in office...

so, today may not hold any celebration. hahaa..

happy birthday to me

i should feel happy as today is my birthday and also i purposely took 1 day leave during my birthday.

received sms greeting from the following (from earliest):
janis
derek
violice
hui ying
rui sheng
sandra
yao hui
xiu fang

realised missing someone? ya. that stupid idiot did not even say "happy birthday" to me. until around 10+am this morning he then called and told me.

everything should be quite fine after something happened... all because of the car matter.
argh.... darren kept asking me the car plate matter... then i needed to ask lynn for that. everyone was so pissed by me. okay... my fault! don't buy car la! idiot!!!! why ever since after buying the car got so many problems???

i cried. felt so depressed... i should be working today... so regret to take leave and this is something i should get???

thinking.... going out alone later. do not wish to meet that guy to ruin my day.

how i wish to find a place to hide myself. just as what violice intend to do right now.

from next year onwards, i believe that i will not take any leave for my birthday... it just ruin my day!!!


++ADDED on 04052007++
yesterday was a funny day... my family would be celebrating my birthday on that day (02052007). so after work, i went to buy chicken wings, drinks and also withdrew money for mum's allowance.

normally i pressed a fixed amount of money to my mum.. so of course this time would be withdrawing the same amount... funny part came. 2 $50 notes at atm "mouth" suddenly "jumped" out which shocked everyone around there as such things should not be happened at all. so i quickly picked up the money and counted...

to my surprise, there was 1 $50 extra!!! so i recounted again.... really 1 $50 extra and double-check with the receipt.... confirmed plus chop chop.... extra $50!!!! yeah... my birthday present from POSB! thanks a lot.... first time received such a BIG gift from you ever since i born to this world... hohoo...

after that, told jorge, derek, darren, my family about it. hhaaa... they felt i was lucky!!!

then cut cake, ate cake, ate chickent wings... then ended my day!!!